strangejoy

It baffles me
that it is so
easy to
reach back
into memory

and smile

despite so
much that
should
make me
wince.

I am not
sure how,
exactly,

it came to be
like this.

I let
love stay
in the space
you left

while
shadows pass
between us.

And,
in all honesty,
it doesn’t seem
to be inside me–

it seems that I
am inside it.

And,
in all honesty,
maybe it

has nothing
to do
with you.

So,
I can’t help
but smile

in thanks
for

the trigger.