lament

still haven’t started reading a new book this year
internet pages keep opening on my screen
i guess i’m learning new things with each one
but i’m not sure how much is sticking
and my eyes are a different kind of tired
than they get from the printed page

the kind of tired that comes from staring
at so many versions of dreams to be realized
making mental lists of the steps to take, all
the things i still want to learn and try,
all the places i still want to go,
the to-do lists grow and grow

and another evening passes when
the main thing that gets done
is a lot of bandwidth used
a lot of sitting